For many years, I have been ministering in 2 directions, quite successfully:
a Christian-facing and a Generally-spiritual-facing ministry.
Doing basically the same thing with both groups:
teaching and individually supporting folks to deepen spiritually,
by sharing soul tools that help us to more easily, safely and comfortably:
Open to our spiritual senses and abilities, as well as
- Heal Deeply, get over our past;
- Grow into our potential, our true self; and
- Shine our Light, uniquely - sharing our fruit in the world.
So, Jesus told me mid-November 2014 that he wanted me to focus, starting this year - 2015 - on sharing his presence more in the world.
-> I said Great.
So he wanted me to do a Class, working with him and soul tools, open to the whole world - phone/computer.
-> I said - well, that's scary, but ok, we will figure it out.
(I usually teach in person, but for a long time, I have been working with individuals on phone & computer - and I have learned to love that, so... ok)
So Jesus said he wanted me to do it for ALL the people - not just Christians and not just Spiritual-folks - Everyone, at the Same Time.
- I said - AHHHHHHHH...
I have been saying that a lot - less and less, but a lot - for the last 5 months ; )
Still working it.
SO, I thought I would share - what is the Big Deal!?
The class is now finally scheduled, about 6 months after the call... ok.
I thought it would start in January (a very good time to start ; ) but whatever.
Instead of starting after winter solstice, we will get to celebrate summer solstice - it's ALL Good ; )
But, here's the thing - I have been ministering-to - teaching and assisting folks to heal - for almost a decade - folks of All stripes usually love their process and their results.
All different folks.
BUT I speak differently, I utilize different language and paradigms for Christians than for general spiritual folks.
About a year ago, God started talking to me about having ONE website, ONE ME in the world - I have been shifting and healing, but it is hard for me.
I can speak "Christian" and Christians generally 'get' it.
But, often if I speak "Christian" to general spiritual folks - it generally doesn't land as well.
A big part of that is: Jesus and Christianity have a pretty bad name in the world, often due to bullys-in-the-name-of-Christ.
Many who were raised Christian and many who were not; many who really love Jesus and many that don't really know him, yet - have bruises, yet unhealed.
On the other hand, I can speak "spiritual" and general spiritual folks generally 'get' it.
But, often if I speak "spiritual" to Christian folks - it generally doesn't land at all.
A big part of that is, Christians tend to have a club in which one has to say Shibboleth the correct way, or one cannot be heard.
The pronunciation of Shibboleth varies amoung differently-flavored Christians, but the saying of it correctly is generally mandatory.
Anyway, I have had a story that I will say one thing and wipe-out interest from most of the Christian-identified folks; and say the next thing and completely lose the listening of the general spiritual folks. Both in the invitation to the class, and in the class - my fear is that I will annoy everyone, and make no difference.
But, of course:
THIS is where I have to trust Jesus.
THIS is where God is helping me heal.
Meanwhile, I am pretty good at: when in Rome do as the Romans.
But, really WHO AM I? What is My Authentic Voice?
How about I BE that, DO that?!
(I am still working on that one, deeper and deeper ; )
More importantly, this IS NOT ABOUT ME!
This is Jesus' gig. I am just blessed to be the MC.
If he wants it this way, he gets it this way = Everyone.
And if no one comes - that is not MY problem.
If no one gets-it - that is not MY fault.
This is between Jesus and who Jesus calls
to empower and equip with inner tools,
to fill and heal and love and call deeper into their unique Way with him.
(Really, not my monkeys, not my circus ; )
So, I am healing. Allowing more.
I think in the end, I am starting to see, that this whole darn thing is more of a healing for me, than for anyone else:
- Because, I gotta Let Go, Let God. Success and failure are just part of the game. Not being understood, being judged and found wanting are just part of the game.
- Because it is my OWN Invalidation, Doubt, Fear, Limits, Lies, wanting to fit-in and hide - within me - that are making this feel especially hard, nothing else.
- Because I (just like everyone else) just need to show up, be authentic, pay attention to Jesus - (not everyone else's stuff or my own stuff). All I have to do is be willing to follow.
But, still I am challenged (fortunately, not as much as I was ;)
Note to Self: Show Up, Follow Jesus... Let it Be Easy!
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